“Forgiveness doesn’t make one person better, or the other guy smaller. Forgiving is just letting go. It’s turning back toward being what we really are.” – From “The Gardens of Ailana” handbook for healers & mystics
Edward Fahey Returns with a New Novel
Sapphire author, Edward Fahey will present his third novel on Friday, May 22nd at 6:30 p.m. The Gardens of Ailana explores the metaphysical, the idea that there are places on this planet not confined to the logic of men or limitations of science. In this modern-day fictional tale, four people with very different backgrounds, each scarred by a horrific childhood, meet at a place of healing where one’s most crippling darkness must be faced down. In the rubble of their lives and broken spirits they learn that in their weaknesses lie their most profound strengths. In their festering wounds they find hope. In The Gardens of Ailana we see through the souls of mystics, experience laying-on-of-hands from the healer’s point of view. Feel at home among wonders and magic. Fahey says of The Gardens of Ailana, “This is the book others have been laying the groundwork for and building towards.” Novelist and teacher, Fahey spent his life hunting magic, seeking out the other sides of reality. His previous novels are Mourning After and Entertaining Naked People. To reserve any of his books please call City Lights Bookstore at 828-586-9499.
Friday, May 22, 2015 – 6:30pm
3 E Jackson St.
Sylva, NC 28779
Quoting HPB or anyone else when exploring matters of spirit, we might not want to take them as ultimate authority. To almost reverence her for connections to great masters of the wisdom who themselves didn’t want to be reverenced. Our most usable insights come from within. At the end of any answer from a great teacher we should hear a little “hook,” as though s/he is asking us, “What insights does that set off in you?”
Great masters point and guide. They know your answers can and should be accessed through your own soul and experiences. If you are simply researching and quoting texts for answers, then your are still knocking on doors.
“The Gardens of Ailana”
A pilgrimage toward redemption, and forgiveness.
You can recover your innocence.
“Guess we all have our moments when we don’t look at reality quite head on. See things through our ‘I’m no good and I can’t do this’ state of mind. We might read it as ‘She hates me,’ or ‘This’ll never work,’ but what we’re really doin’ is givin’ up on ourselves.” …
… “So you’re sayin’ we just make peace with everyone who’s ever screwed us.”
Paulette reached into her own past to tell her, “We make peace with ourselves. They just come along for the ride.”
I am absolutely amazed at the wisdom, deep truth, and heavy duty teachings in “The Gardens of Ailana”! I find insights I have never seen any philosopher or great spiritual teacher even hint at before! (And I hate using exclamation points) Every day it all just pours through – a thousand words or more in a couple of hours – and I am learning so much from each scene and passage. I feel like I am READING each chapter, not writing it.
I am so very, very grateful for these teachings
Will be doing a reading from “The Mourning After” (and perhaps from my new book, “The Gardens of Ailana”) at the Quest Bookshop in New York City on Sunday, May 11th.
“What do you think we should call you?” little Sylva asked.
“Do I have to have a name?”
“Most people seem to think so. I think they’d get lost if they didn’t have their names. People don’t usually know who they really are, but they do like to pretend.”
“People think they need a lot of things they’d be better off without.”
“That’s what my mom says, but I’m still figuring on that one.”
“Want a little help?”
“No, I think I’ll just let my brain have it for a while; I’ve got other things to do.”
Some very brief bit, only one or two short, very mildy distracting lines goes here.
“What do you like to eat?” Sylva, lost in her pondering, was all seriousness now.
“I like strawberries.”
“No, that’d be a dumb name.”
“How about calling me Cuthbert?”
“Now you are just being silly. Pay attention. This is important business. People don’t come here and leave here the same, so they should get a new name while they’re here.”
“Okay, I can see that,” he said. “So what’s your brother’s new name? Or is Renn his new name?”
“Renn doesn’t need a new name; he was born here. Only the pretending people need real names when they stop pretending so much. But some people leave and they still don’t know who they are, so I don’t name them.”
“Aren’t you the girl people told me doesn’t talk very much? Guess they didn’t know you very well.”
“Good point,” she said. So then she went back to thinking again.
As they studied the land around them it seemed indecisive, uncertain. It hadn’t yet made up its mind. Was it spring now, or had winter merely blinked? Were some patches of ivy brown, brittle, dried out and returning to soil; or were they looking for a bit of their green again? Had they given up, or would they once again decide to live? Was that which had been there last year coming back, or had they seen the last of it?
“Y’know, people really should listen to children,” she told him.
“I’m beginning to find that out.”
“But not when we’re just being children.”
“Okay, now that’s something I’ll have to think about.”
“It’s good to give each other stuff to think.
“But you don’t wanna make a whole lotta noise when you’re doing it.”
“You mean like talking?” he asked.
“And other stuff. Like eating corn chips.”
He started to write on one of his special lumpy papers. She saw him holding a pencil he hadn’t had before, but hadn’t seen how he’d opened his box. She decided she would just have to start observing harder.
She thought she’d give him something to write.
“You know you can’t pet a stumblebee on the back while he’s flying because that’s where his flying parts are, and that’s why they stumble.”
“Ah, yes. That would be so,” he replied.
“You don’t really scare them when you try to, but they would ‘Really rather you would stop doing that!’ ”
And then she was quiet again. That had been a lot of talking for her. She didn’t usually pay any attention to grownups because most grownups didn’t know very much.
This one was different.
Besides, he was fun to watch because his light went out farther when he thought about people.
It didn’t shrink in and get all hard like that crippled lady’s used to. You could hardly call hers light at all.
“I think I’ll name you Mica,” she told him, “Because you’re all shiny.”
“Mica. I like that. Thank you.”
“Mica it is. I am now Mica.”
“You are Mica, the Shiny One.”
At end of day, Paulette sat with Ailana on the porch, unwinding from her day of exploration. She’d been thinking about how much she had learned back at the healing and meditation retreat without even knowing it.
She tried to remind Ailana now of one particularly lasting and memorable lesson. “When you told us to listen to the forest, feel that deep Peace, and take it inside us … Well that just changed me somehow.”
“Except I never said that.”
“It … but … You didn’t?”
“Why would I tell you to take peace inside you? It’s already there. All you needed was to find it. I told you to feel it inside you, not take it there.”
– From my new novel-in-progress, “The Gardens of Ailana”.
Digging through lies you created to hide your True Self,
you may find God.
Or something much better.
An instant spray of sparkle spat outward across the pond.
Gentle footprints of ripple wavered, dissolved, fading away to rich green stillness. All the world was ripening, finding its form, as the scent of new birth hid in breezes.
Paulette poked through the rubble left by long years of misconceptions she had once built her life on. By water’s edge she kicked through the jetsam of defensiveness she no longer need. Budding here and there throughout the wreckage she found the delicate florets of long-hidden kindnesses, just now peeking out through deep shadows.
Harve felt caught up in a web of lies the world really wanted, even needed to believe. They told him to his face, announced in banner headlines, that their world needed heroes. So in some muddled and disheartened way, he kept climbing into the costume they held out before him.
He couldn’t abandon them now.
Confession would get him nowhere; it would hurt a lot of people.
He was trapped.
And yet here was a woman to whom he had just bared his soul throughout a long night of impassioned weakness, and she seemed to understand. She stood beside him still.
In fact they seem to have connected even more deeply than if he had just stayed Mr. Mystery, or played the hero card.
Throughout this morning they’d been wandering. Heading off originally, each had followed his or her own directions, seemingly at random. Bit by bit their paths had drawn nearer to each other. Now the two new and tentative companions walked together, though not directly side-by-side, and barely talking.
Walking, pausing, reflecting; staring at trees right in front of them, or rocks at their feet, but not truly seeing them. They felt stunned, unnerved; bemused as things seen and unseen fell into new places. Like leaves after a great troubling wind. They felt both drained and refilled; alive with new mysteries and possibilities.
Like newborns, everything was new, bright, wondrous, but confusing. Nothing made sense, and yet they had to learn to trust, their hearts surging everywhere at once. This was a brand new world they knew nothing about.
After long silence between them, Paulette spoke.
“It’s so hard to find out all in one night you’ve built your life on beliefs that were just never true.”
“Tell me about it.”
– From my novel, “The Gardens of Ailana”.